Back to the sucky english..

Haro! was wondering when i have gf that time my english seems better...now i normally used chinese to communicate wif people but i guess i still maintain the skill.

Am listening to this song right now. 1:59



I want you to take over control~


Anyways fcking free now thus feel like updating my blog....went to see one of my fren 's blog....she practically write down EVERYTHING she do like pee eat take cab walk meet who...she even record down what time the people reach the place...is like wtf...who in the correct sense of mind would do that...maybe she really want to reocrd everything of her life.... basically im doing the same but no1 knows my identity :)

7 days never talk to her ler :):) doing fine. Bluffing myself that im doing fine haha.

Anyways...i become a tiong kia now lol...new to this sence but its fcking fun la...now i got like 3-4 siam bu lol...hehe i normally go parklane there tiong de...hehe....know alot of ppl ar....now learn alot of knowlegde ar....

I shall SPOOF my that fren style of writing.

Ystd morning went to boxing lesson. Lesson started at 12.30 but we reached at about 12.45. Not much people ystd...but there are new members, 2 girls. Didn't managed to get their names but she look like one of my clubbing frens, which is now my fren de girl fren. Anyways, she smiled at me when we are leaving at 1:43-1:45 (if im not wrong). Went to return the dvd and the stupid shopkeeper fine me $1 cause i late return...wtf? Went to take bus home, i last time got a friend stay here...i never imagine i would be standing at this very bus stop waiting for the very same bus. It has been like for almost...5 years time. Got home pretty quick...was feeling dam cold....cause i was wearing my singlet only lol..My fren called and ask me wan go tiong anot...didn;t wanted to go. Buti did. Leave house at 8:00. Reach there at 9:00. went to the kopitiam eat fried kuay tieow. waited for him...then we went down the first sup diu. Ncb reached there the girl say she haven come work....bo pain, then we went back to the one we always go. Ystd there were alot of girls there...got 1 dam chio mamasan...sibei ai zai bo beh zao. she fcking hot la...if she come down n work confirm she can earn fcking alot 1 lor...but she mamasan still got ppl buy flower for her sia...imba. Anyways i got this girl...she 25 years old i believe..lol she say i dam young...fun sia...then we play game drink....i buy flower for her....buy shots for her...i stupid i go buy 2 flower for 1 girl i don even rmb her name n recall we ever talk b4....regret == cb waste my $$$. ANyways after drinking, we went back to the sup diu we at first go de....then now i got a new girl...hehe she followed us to the thai disco...always hug her all the way hehes. sibei fun...very long never touch girl liao..sibei emo....At there i still sing song sia...the girl help me requested the song i LOVE...then the guy singer see that i can sing abit then he pass me the mic...dam nice sibei song !! Went back to the first club we go...lol then i saw the girl WU YUE. she come n hugged me n her boobs is ji tao big 1 sia....sibei shiok the feeling. Went to another sup diu at 3:00 i think. I brought the girl that followed us to the another sup diu de...but at there i got another girl....when i entered the place..sibei gan phua suay....saw her...her face is ji tao du lan. :(:( anyways...the girl after awhile go home ler...then my at there de girl fren angry ...wa no girl pei me lor...sad :(:( anyways. This morning i got sms my WU YUE she no reply sibei sian...none of my girl reply me sia...cb nvm i work hard abit~...hais.

Smoke too much ler...nid cut down on that...


BBQ later...nth much ler....signing off~~ Bye Bye ~ Woots~ BTW the style my fren post but MORE DETAIL i mean her more detail HEHE. BYE~

Merry x'mas !

Haro....Merry x'mas !!! Although its a belated one..hehe..anyways chritmas eve on that day went to thai disco..quite fun a new place i never went before...dam fun there...dragged my cousin go with me...he was rather bored i think...lol but i had fun wif my sup bu...hehe...maybe tonight going down again...i dono....

Celebrated both of my frens birthday on sun...quite fun ar...we went to eat nice food and went to sing song after that...went to the place i first go wif my baby de....sibei sad memories shoot me at the back...btw i never contact her ler....at least for 4 days ler...i think i really let go ler...yippe~... anyways have been reading this forum...

Thinking of booking appointment to fix my thing leh....also feel like fcking some1 leh....sibei sian sia...when got firl fren not really feel like fcking but now no girl fren sibei got feel to up some1 sia...anyways i read this post a guy let a FL to do raw on him...wtf is he thinking sia....even wif my gf i don dare raw sia....but i actually got raw b4 sia....but like 1 min...i tell u raw is pain sia.....but shoik lol....i never expect raw to be so pain....but the shoik-ness lvl also dam high !

Anyways...i met this girl at my boxing school today...she look like one of my fren...she don like chinese....hmm...i hope 2morrow can see her again....if i see her again i will talk to her this time :):) nth much....Being single feels good and bad at the same time... fare well ~~~ bye.

Christmas soon.

Haro...every1. Alot of things happened this few days...first i would like to say....I juz read this very very meaningful PDF about how to get over a relationship...first of all i wan to thank the person for writing this....every single point the person say is 100% truth... i cab swear using my life.... anyways... I went to volunteer myself for the heartware if im not wrong...i 4get ler..anyways i went to school on that day for the ice breaking session...lol very very meaningful sia....i never thought i would ever do sumthing like that but i some up the courage to go the ice breaking alone..make a few frens :):) nt bad right some of them is Uni student and NS man. Not bad sia...some from my school de :):) anyways...I still got chat wif my ex....according to the 7 bullets for heartache..i should not talk to her ler....hais....the think really very true sia...i see if i can host it on here.

i think cannot sia...sian nvm juz find 7 Silver bullets for Heartache....it really helps...



Love this song~~

anyways...she is coming back to sg 2morrow i going to buy a christmas gift for her...i know it seems funnier and she might not be able to meet me on christmas that day but maybe thats the last gift i shall give her...then it would really be the starting of a new year already...i should completely forget about her ler....yea that should be the case !

I went to learn boxing. Seriously this time i finally do sumthing i say i will..today i learn alot of stances..elbow..knee...jab cross....alot sia...the work out also dam shack....100 push up, 100 crutches, 100 squats n punching bag....i wan to vent out all my anger !!! Actually i have planned alot of my life already..until next year june sia...hehe...not bad right.....i read just now, it says like you keep urself busy u thought you are happy but in fact you n me know that you are not happy at all....fcking true sia....i m not happy now....i dono how to carry on sia...i juz kept myself busy by doing alot of things...but when i m alone i tend to think ALOT.

Hais i dono la..............................btw the song i find for like 5 months liao lor...finally today found it so happy !!!!

Christmas coming soon...will update again....i shall go put the song into my hp ler...n take out all the picture liao....good nights :)........

Wow using Ipad to blog !!!

Haro....lol I now using my iPad to update my blog sia hehe cool right.

Been some time since I update my blog already...today was a good day...all the luck seem to return when they know I broke off wif my gf..this morning I went to meet my best fren. We meet at the interchange...to my amazed, I saw something I never see for a long time ler..a ZG ! I saw this auntie in her mid 30s I think. She was wearing this blue qibao top and a black jeans. Ashe was wearing a wooden heel high heel. Her hair was short, about shoulder length. A Lao chio I think :):).

From the side of her jeans, I can see Her black thong or g string showing lol. It was black...apparently she wore her panties too high lol. It was quite nice I used to see this type of thing in the past but when I have gf I never really got the chance to see this type of ler... Lol

Meet my friend and we went to buy singlet..lol after that eat lunch.

Meet another friend after that, cause my best friend have to go school for the presentation. My friend wanted to buy a new phone but he cannot buy, thus I help him to buy....lol i use my ic all this but the billing is he pay lol...


Went to eat dinner after that. Haven't got any chance to really sit down and talk to my this friend leer....he suddenly told me that he have a girl friend leer......when we year 1 all of us say will get a gf b4 we graduate lol now a lot of them got gf ler....I lie again....he ask me a lot of thing about my ex but I pretended that she is still my gf but in my heart I know that it is not true at all.....lol I still lie....I don't have a choice sia :( he told me he got the gf for like 6 months ler...WTF sia he hide until so pro sia.,,,,I never knew sia.....he was more imba then me lor....i saw her gf picture,,,, quite nice I mean looks like a nice girl but I dono cause I never see in rl b4 lol.


Talk about all the sex position n type of condom used.haha....I feel sad la...cause really she really carry on her life dam well...but I still dwell in the past.....



Went to buy protector, phone cover, went into the epicenter, there this chi bu from a certain bank de. She really dam chi wif short skirt and a bank uniform.she got long hair n long nails....voice also nice :):)

Nth much ler as usual go out a lot chio bu but lazy to write them down cause like useless haha...............


Dono what I want lurhs hais...talk a lot about life wif my mother juz now....maybe I m not fated wif her ba.....

My fern got say something if it's urs it urs .....he gave a example like if u got luck, if u are at home sitting there doing nth got a fren will call u n intro girl for u....lol if u fate to have gf confirm have de sia...dono to think about it,,,,,I really should let her go already ah........she went oversea today,,,,,,I miss her, hugging her n having *** wif her... From the bottom of my heart...,I don da to say out...I only can say here...

I dono is it I miss her as the person or I juz miss having *** wif her....I really dono sia.,...I cant confirm is love or lust....

I go sleep ler....btw I using my iPad to update sia so cool :):)nights nights.....day 1 she go oversea....no call or anything.....WTF.

Angry or Sad?

Haro...today is a fcked up day....went school for exam today...studied in the morning but apparently not enuff...wasn't able to do much questions...shuld be able to pass though.

Something Fcked up happened today....my fren call me say she saw my "girlfren" wif one guy. i sms her...she say ya...she was wif that guy....let me be frank wif every1 here....that guy is her ex ex boyfren which means she was wif him for 2 years b4 me...

I really dono what feeling i shuld have now...isit angry or sad?

I really dono isit that the incident lead her to break up wif me or its juz simply an excuse for her to go back to her ex ex bf.

Shuld i feel angry or sad? Did i trust her too much? How can she move on so fast...did she really treat this relationship seriously? we were 2gether for 1 month only....i don even know how she broke off wif her ex boy fren because of what reason sia....maybe she still have a lot of feelings for him....i may be juz a sub for her to 4get that guy for the time being...

like that i also dono what feelings i should have sia....shuld i feel angry cause she treated me as a sub now when the feeling come back again she go back wif her ex ex?

or i should feel sad n it is because that i never meet her parents she angry and cannot get pass this thinking thats y break wif me then juz nice her ex ex jio her back? SAD or ANGRY?


i dono sia...but for now im sure...i will never sms her liao... hao ma bu chi hui tou chao....wan to be frens also abit hard la...hor....i can only wish her good luck when she go taiwan here....i will never sms liao.... she i can only wish her luck here.

Hey update on my EX-gf

Haro..long time no see...finally i have the time to read thru my whole blog...what happened in the past 2 years. I realize i changed alot. From skin contact in buses to grinding people in clubs to tiong thai disco with frens to having a girl fren.

YES...i changed alot. In the past...i used to think that s3x is the only think i need if i got girl fren...but when u really have girl fren, you will know that it is actually the presence of her that is important. I really never cherish her at all lor...but its all too late to apologize. We really do alot of stuff together la...Ystd i went to meet her...was fun in the beginning we went purplr line interchange eat lunch yoshinoya...followed by studying for the test....we went to her house downstairs to chit chat...when im about to leave...suddenely she recieved a phone call...it was her ex ex boy fren...now she say he's trying to jio her back again....I jus feel sad when i hear all this lor...i tot i have totally forgotten about her already...ystd we went out...we have like nth to talk about sia...even when we are together, we also nth to talk about...maybe wo men really got no fate to be together....

I wanted to post the picture leh...but i don't have the cable...but i think i will use my lap top tonight to post the pictures of cause i will edit abit la ::))

I really feel like finding another girl fren sia...n this time i won't do stun at all liao...serious....i regret never treat my EX good enuff lor....wasted sia...I hope i can find another girl fren soon....sex is nt everything in relationship...i learned this by experiencing it.

now my goals is to learn boxing, a new language and when grad, i go work then followed by a overseas trip....and i think its time for NS ler :) Bye Bye.

Completion of task 3.

Haro..was reading thru my b log this few days. See alot of stuff that reminds me of sumthing good..lol

I just want to say my experience with every1...in the past, i used to complain that i don't have gf...but now i regret that i never cherish her...wasted right when u lost it then u will know the importance of it.

Anyways...i jus want to say...i do alot of wild stuff wif her..

Had to write down b4 memories fail me.

We had ***...thats natural right...we try "outdoor" places...we had shower :)...lol so much things...we go out eat together...everytime i hug her i get boner...:)....we went to playground n sit...we spend almost everyday together..

I will post a picture of me n her here...but had to get the cable first...gimme some time to find which shops sells this type of cable.

Oh...juz to say that i really carry on my life ler...went thai disco 2 days ago...sibei chiong sia...my fren know ppl there thats y quite fun...open 1 bottle then the girls come pei us play dice n 5-10. Feeling was super good...got chance to hug them i bought a few flowers for the girls...lol...but that place alot of gangster...made alot of friends too like they were from different tables...but ended up we intro ourself to them...i feel like having more friends is better lo :)

When the shop close at 4am, we n the hostress went to another thai disco n drink again..lol the hostress not bad la...quite friendly abit older then us though. She drunk lol cannot drink too much sia...she at her work place alr drink like hardcore liao...i also abit sei sia....but go home immediately sleep liao lol.

Anyways i saw the thai girl US like free 1 sia...they all fcking hot sia...if can i wan go back again..

I feel that i alr give her back her freedom liao lo what ever she wan to do i also cannot stop her liao...:( she never sms good night to me ystd...sad right? i dono maybe kan kai ler..

Anyways i met her during the japan trip...if my fren never jio them out...i would not even be able to be frens wif them sia....let alone be couple...so strange la this world lol...as in how to meet...really lor...maybe we are not meant for each other....cause at first i don't have the intention of jio-ing them out also sia...lol

Anyways....i completed task 3 ler...now leh...what shuld i do? Life without GOALs.

Maybe really shuld enjoy b4 i grow old ba...

Ystd my cousin from malaysia come to singapore and play...ystd night was their last night here....i never got the chance to meet them...hais but at least i say when next time i go MY bring me to there de Zouk lol...

I read thru my blog...i rmb how i used to say i never got the chacne to club ktv all this...but now i try everything ler...who knows life can be so strange sometimes....sometimes u never expect u will get chance to do something like that...then suddenely chance come up to ur face. I even try b4 taiwan clubs n japan KTV b4 sia...wtf right...hoo hoo.... i shall be more active in recording my life down...cause memory will lose 1...serious. Going to study 1 subject wif my ex....finally able to use this word ex....she is like a history, part of my life...

Hope next year is a better year....Bye Bye.

Back to square one

Hey...6 days after the break up...although last 2 days we have met and sort out everything ler...i feel so dam sad...its hard for me to see her just moved on like that... back to her usual self...i still care alot for her...but i know sonner or later she will become other's baby ler. I have to move on. Just can't think of a reason why should i move on..

Last time, i still can blame god for not giving me a gf but now i can blame no1 alr...its my own fault that i m not serious wif her...until u lose her...u then came to realise that she is the one for u. I never knew how to cherish some1..

Its my fault that i should just meet her parents...y the fuck i ran away....

its all too late now...ystd i had this dream. I talk to her n when i ask her where she go, she say nth juz go out wif friends...its wif guys i also know...got the feeling la...u see in dream i am not able to take it already what happens if it happen in real life...

I used to have boner everyday...lol now i think my **** don feel like standing also sia...hahas. Anyways...i calculated.

I have been clubbing for 4 months and have gf for 1 month + 8 days :):)

7 more weeks to end of school.

P.s i still love u alot...cannot stop thinking about those things we do together..

Been So long.

Hey. HAven posted for 3 months? tot this blog is going to die..Alot of things happened..throughout this period...for example i went oversea to japan, taiwan.
Having a girlfren.

Yes u see it correctly, having a girlfren...never tot i this type of person can have gf right...? 3/12/2010 we broke. we haven been together for 33 days. 1 month and 8 days. Abit short right..Yes the girl broke up wif me...but ultimately is my fault. i m a person with alot of flaws. I really would changed for her sia..but i guess its too late now... Having a gf feeling is so much different i enjoy the time spend with her all this.hugging her kissing her eat wif her walk wif her shop wif her...see her try clothes... so many things. I think its impossible for us to patch back again. I only can wish her good luck only...i will be the 1 sad n rmbering all this crap..i dono if she feel sad anot..i dono.

rmb i have a pact that time, i completed all of them. Have sex,Have gf,Smoke.

ALL B4 NS...i completed.

I have no issues wif god anymore...i also grumble he never give my chance, good luck...now he let me try 1 month of relationship...all good things come to an end..For my i dono y when sumthing is at a peak there bound to be failure in me...i think when i write sumething here, god can see it.

Thus i wish to change something in my life...i will list out all the bad stuff i have n i wish god would help me to change all this at least gimme the determination to change.

1) I have too much excuses
2) I always lie. I lie about almost everything in real life...cause i don wan ppl to see me as a loser in life, i lie to my gf that i got 3 gf infront og her i lie to her i have one night stand, i lie to her almost everything. I sux.
3) I wan to have a life plan ahead.
4) I am too self-centered ( I only think for myself...i never spare a tot for the other, i only matters if this thing is benefit for me, even if the other party loses alot its none of my business.)
5) I always late ( I seldom early at all....i make my gf wait alot...maybe this show thats i don love her enuff..)
6) I always joke around at the wrong times...(i joke at wrong moment)
7) I am never serious...when times that requires me to be serious i joke around.
8) I never think carefully before i act
9) I m too stubborn.

All these are the bad points i have i will print them out n revised them every morning until i change all of them. After this break up i she made me realize all these bad points...even if we really cannot get back as couple, i really thank her for letting me see all this bad points i have i wish to change all of them. Finally i can only wish her best of luck. I will alwyas love her...she will always have 0.01% in my heart as a lover...Az___ ;);)

Anyways another pact is 30 year old. i changed abit,,, if i don have a family at that time... then it will be my deathday on that day :):)

Life is juz full of breaking point if any1 is reading this...i only have 1 thing to say ...set a pact for urself n completed it b4 the date line u will feel very accomplished. I love u Az___. bye bye.