Been So long.

Hey. HAven posted for 3 months? tot this blog is going to die..Alot of things happened..throughout this period...for example i went oversea to japan, taiwan.
Having a girlfren.

Yes u see it correctly, having a girlfren...never tot i this type of person can have gf right...? 3/12/2010 we broke. we haven been together for 33 days. 1 month and 8 days. Abit short right..Yes the girl broke up wif me...but ultimately is my fault. i m a person with alot of flaws. I really would changed for her sia..but i guess its too late now... Having a gf feeling is so much different i enjoy the time spend with her all this.hugging her kissing her eat wif her walk wif her shop wif her...see her try clothes... so many things. I think its impossible for us to patch back again. I only can wish her good luck only...i will be the 1 sad n rmbering all this crap..i dono if she feel sad anot..i dono.

rmb i have a pact that time, i completed all of them. Have sex,Have gf,Smoke.

ALL B4 NS...i completed.

I have no issues wif god anymore...i also grumble he never give my chance, good luck...now he let me try 1 month of relationship...all good things come to an end..For my i dono y when sumthing is at a peak there bound to be failure in me...i think when i write sumething here, god can see it.

Thus i wish to change something in my life...i will list out all the bad stuff i have n i wish god would help me to change all this at least gimme the determination to change.

1) I have too much excuses
2) I always lie. I lie about almost everything in real life...cause i don wan ppl to see me as a loser in life, i lie to my gf that i got 3 gf infront og her i lie to her i have one night stand, i lie to her almost everything. I sux.
3) I wan to have a life plan ahead.
4) I am too self-centered ( I only think for myself...i never spare a tot for the other, i only matters if this thing is benefit for me, even if the other party loses alot its none of my business.)
5) I always late ( I seldom early at all....i make my gf wait alot...maybe this show thats i don love her enuff..)
6) I always joke around at the wrong times...(i joke at wrong moment)
7) I am never serious...when times that requires me to be serious i joke around.
8) I never think carefully before i act
9) I m too stubborn.

All these are the bad points i have i will print them out n revised them every morning until i change all of them. After this break up i she made me realize all these bad points...even if we really cannot get back as couple, i really thank her for letting me see all this bad points i have i wish to change all of them. Finally i can only wish her best of luck. I will alwyas love her...she will always have 0.01% in my heart as a lover...Az___ ;);)

Anyways another pact is 30 year old. i changed abit,,, if i don have a family at that time... then it will be my deathday on that day :):)

Life is juz full of breaking point if any1 is reading this...i only have 1 thing to say ...set a pact for urself n completed it b4 the date line u will feel very accomplished. I love u Az___. bye bye.